[BL] Debut in Interstellar After Retiring as Grim Reaper-Chapter 115: Life And Death

Chapter 115: Life And Death

Being a grim reaper who had faced death countless and endless times everyday, had Qin An ever once thought what death feels like himself?

It was a very distant memory that he actually didn’t even consider memorable or worth thinking further, but in his current situation right now, his mind just unknowingly flashes that memory from the past.

At that time, Qin An was just a junior grim reaper. Being able to exist and have his own consciousness, he started doing his job regularly like anybody else. Nothing matters but to just do everything properly because that is why they existed. It’s also the same for other grim reapers who serve just earlier like him. It’s still the stage wherein their minds aren’t curious about humans and their lives. Nothing else matters for them.

...

Until in such an ordinary time while he was working and waiting for the soul outside the room of the hospital, one junior grim reaper stopped in front of him and greeted. At this time around, Qin An wasn’t too cold nor intimidating so others were not afraid of going closer.

That co-junior looked inside the room and found many relatives crying on someone laying on the bed while an obvious soul was standing on the side and was just staring sadly at them.

"Can I ask the reason why he died?" The junior asked curiously as he saw the soul was still young.

Qin An looked like he didn’t want to talk with his usual cold face but looking at the co-reaper who obviously won’t leave unless he got the answer, he has no choice.

"Accident." He simply answered and the latter nodded.

"What kind of accident?"

"Car crash."

"Ohhh, did he die in the hospital or was it when he was at the scene?"

"... Hospital."

"Right away? Like did he go into a coma or had an operation..." And so on. This junior reaper keeps on adding questions and chatter non-stop as if they are close acquaintances.

This made his face turn colder in irritation and was about to cut off when the latter asked an unexpected question to him.

"Aren’t you curious how it feels dying?"

Qin An looked at its childish face and although this grim reaper looked a bit silly, his eyes weren’t naive but just purely curious.

"Humans are very delicate. They can die even for the simplest reason so I often heard them saying that it’s better to live the way you want before it ends." He tilted his head. "But, I am wondering how it really feels when you die? Is it really very painful? Is it scary? If it is then maybe we’re lucky not to die like them."

"...."

Qin An didn’t answer him.

Grim reapers like them would not die. Their wounds will heal even faster and they live too long than anyone else. Simply put, they are also like immortals that never die and only exist to balance the world.

They can feel emotions and pain or get wounded like others but they never die. They will always exist to guide the dead and fight with the dark elements.

What could probably be considered as their enemies are of course the dark creatures. Even if they are strong, those dark creatures can naturally fight with them. If they are too strong, these creatures can wound them and use every means so they can no longer get up. They won’t die but they won’t have the chance to heal themselves when encountered by a high-intelligent creature. ƒгeewebnovёl.com

But back to what the junior was saying, at that time he also actually agreed to him.

They are lucky to not die.

They won’t die and will have an infinite life in this world no matter where they go. Thus, Qin An had also heard and saw many senior grim reapers wander around human’s world to explore and enjoy themselves.

Even if only the dead can see them, it doesn’t hinder how they will act and act as if they are just normal humans.

Because they have the greatest freedom and time to do everything they want unlike these humans who can only live for a limited time and most were even cut off like this.

The total contrast of everywhere.

Maybe that’s the reason why he was even more indifferent to death.

Qin An never felt the fear and the loss of a life nor even felt despair when they saw their own cold body as a corpse. For grim reapers like them, neither of these two associates with them even if life and death are what they always faced.

At that time, Qin An didn’t care if he’ll ’die’ or disappear all of the sudden.

...

Until this time.

Back at present, before totally losing consciousness, Qin An deeply felt the fragility of a human’s body. The yin energy that had been shot at him and even the spiritual energy is too much for this ordinary body to handle.

Thus as he felt himself slowly going deeper, he can also feel the air inside him slowly losing.

It was as if the moment he totally lost his breath, he would also lose his life.

And this made his heart skip a beat.

He... doesn’t want it yet.

Because he clearly knows that if he dies, he will either completely go back to his grim reaper identity or maybe just die and disappear like what souls end.

Neither of them is what he wants. Qin An doesn’t want to go back, he finally admitted this to himself.

Back to everything where his world were just black and dull.

He also doesn’t want to disappear completely. He hasn’t lived enough nor done his job again to save He Yan and others.

This sudden desperation that burst inside him made him subconsciously want to struggle his body again to move yet unfortunately, Qin An couldn’t move his body anymore.

His consciousness became blurry and the last thing that he remembered was that he saw someone coming towards him.

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Meanwhile, just almost half an hour ago on the other side, He Li and others finally received the secret investigation about their let comrade Fu Minghao. The members and Cheng Yu went to his private office and gathered together to learn about the news.

"Marshal, how was the investigation going?" Fu Minglei, who’s Fu Minghao’s brother, couldn’t be bothered in his position anymore as a subordinate and just wanted to know the answer immediately. He looks very anxious and his hands are slightly trembling.

"Minglei, sit down." Hong Xiran pulled his friend and led him to sit. Others look at He Li and the anticipation on their faces are clear so He Lu didn’t waste time anymore and revealed the news directly.

"It’s true."

"!!!"

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