[BL] Debut in Interstellar After Retiring as Grim Reaper-Chapter 154: Heat

Chapter 154: Heat

"Hello, everyone. We are the group from Team A and this is our guest Senior Mian Li. We hope you’ll enjoy the show and see the hard work of our team. Thank you." Cao Ming said without any further intentions of sowing discord again like he usually does. This actually surprised many but they accepted it anyway.

After Sheng Yan’s group also introduced themselves, Jiang Su used the randomizer again to pick which group to perform.

And the results? It was Sheng Yan’s group to be the first performer on this day.

The stage’s light went off for a few seconds before a ray of light emerged.

The whole place felt the increasing atmosphere around them. This made some of the trainees sweat even though this heat is made by the mental power. Fire also begins to lit up with every corner around the stage and even beside their seats. Some formed into a small ball of fire and it floated around making the whole venue like a place where countless tiny lanterns can be seen flying at night.

A large circle of fire also appeared on the stage with Sheng Yan standing in the middle of the spotlight while the other members were behind him under the dark side.

Unlike his gentle temperament, Sheng Yan’s face is solemn and firm. He slowly raised his hand as a ball of fire emerged on top of his palm. That fire got bigger and it slowly floated above the group. Afterwards, the melody finally started and their performance officially began.

"There’s a fire growing inside me

I wanna know how it’ll lead me..." Sheng Yan opened his lips and sang the lyrics with a tone of confusion, intrigue and faint excitement.

Their performance is entitled ’Heat’ that focuses on unleashing the fire that grows inside them. The song talks about a man slowly discovering a new side of himself. A hidden danger that had been hiding inside.

"Is this a monster?

Will it devore me forever?" Chen Jiu also sang his line while showing his quick movement execution.

As the increasing heat intensified, the notes of the song also went higher and higher, changing into different tones that every member performed.

"Can I let this heat out?

If not, will it haunt me at night?

Heat it, beat it

It’s a fire, yeah..."

Sheng Yan was actually not confident in himself in this round. He was used to doing a slower and gradual way of expressing himself. He always adheres peace and tranquility inside him.

Other trainees he had been friends with even jokingly said why did his mentality look like an old man thriving for a peace of mind? When most of the individuals with the age around him seek wild and free.

Most of them wanted to explore, be adventurous and have an endless courage to be different. However, he was not.

It’s not that Sheng Yan never had this thought in his life. No matter how calm a person is, there’s always a time when a person seeks excitement and adrenaline rush for themselves.

Sheng Yan felt that too.

But society taught him not to.

The prejudices and discrimination that he received just because he was not the standard idol they wanted. From his looks, status in life, his physical and mental attributes, Sheng Yan received the same answer for all of these— average.

His appearance is not outstanding and was like just someone that any person will forget easily, his family was just ordinary and so as is qualifications to become a soldier.

Sheng Yan didn’t even know whether to envy those who are at the top or the bottom. The higher ones will be noticed and admired by many while the bottom will be reminded again and again— but at least it was remembered.

While he was just an average. Can always be ignored, can always be forgotten.

Society taught him that no matter if he tries to achieve higher or try to rebel, he will never be noticed.

Thus in the end, Sheng Yan became tired and just wanted a peace of mind for himself.

As long as he would not think about thos past, as long as nobody will see him, his life can be just peaceful. At least he will no longer be tied with anxiety for being in the spotlight, right?

It’s better to be just a passerby than to be remembered but you will always have to be vigilant or their eyes will devore you.

Until this song taught him something.

Senior Chen Jiu told them to unleash himself. Even if we stayed in the middle and were average. Even if we stay normal and never be the spotlight, unleashing ourselves can save us too.

To conquer us and let us grow the heat inside ourselves to strive for the better version of ourselves.

"It’s a heat that may burn me

But who cares anymore?

Unleash the heat and we can beat fate..."

Sheng Yan looked at the crowd with a firmness in his eyes. He knew that there are too many outstanding trainees in this competition and they have higher possibilities to debut than him.

He may lose again and may be forgotten by others.

But as long as he existed at this moment. He is here.

If no one will remember, then he will remember himself.

"Stop the fire to burn you

Let yourself hunt and never be haunted..." Sheng Yan sang the last line of the song before they readied themselves for the final end of their performance.

The ball of fire slowly goes down and floats halfway, then it starts to circle around them inside the circle of fire. Afterwards, when he and the other members pose for the end, the fire floats towards his palm again. Sheng Yan controls his mental power and lets the ball of fire get smaller until he can close it with his hand and put it on his chest where the fire penetrates inside him.

It didn’t hurt him of course, especially that it was made from his own and Sheng Yan felt the warmth inside his chest.

It tells him... to unleash and control the fire instead.

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