Carnivals: Claimed By The Deranged Alpha Prince [BL]-Chapter 269: Guilt

Jules’ pov

I stared down at Blaze’s arms while worry flood through every inch of my insides. When I reached out and gently nudged his discolored skin, he winced a little and I pulled my hand away while regarding him worriedly.

"What are we gonna do?" I asked quietly and he sighed softly.

The entire thing my father said about his arm rushed into my mind once and I began to panic, eyes widening as I shifted closer to him on the bed.

"There’s something I can do, right?" I said after a few moments and he sighed again before his eyes dragged over his swollen arms.

"Stop worrying so much, it doesn’t hurt a lot." He told me but I didn’t believe him. As I stared pointedly at his arm, I ended up jumping off the bed and heading into the kitchen in order to get some ice there.

Roy was in there, standing in front of the fridge, but it was clear that he was already lost in thoughts. I instantly felt guilty because I knew he was still thinking about Kim, we all are. I couldn’t bring myself to tell him about the conversation my father had with me concerning me killing Kim.

"You alright?" He asked as soon as he noticed my presence and I stiffened a little before clearing my throat.

"I- I’m okay. What about you?" I asked him and he shrugged a little, stepping away from the fridge for me.

"Doing fine." He ended up resting as I got the fridge open and got some ice out.

After my father finished having a long ass conversation with me, he ended up opening a large door and telling me that I was free to leave, but this was only after I convinced him that I’d think about betraying Blaze for him, just to save my own life.

Once at the opened doorway, I turned around and directed a blast of magic at him, one which ended up evaporating into thin air before it could touch him. That instantly made him snicker as he regarded me from across the room.

"Just so you know, your magic can’t hurt me because I’m protected with a strong spell, but I didn’t expect a rookie like you to know that. It’s hilarious that you believed that beginners’ ass magic could do a thing to me." He had drawled in amusement, and then he was teleporting out of the room before I could do or say anything else.

When I met Blaze, I was flooded with so much relief on seeing that he was fine. Because I didn’t want him to use anymore of his powers, I called Roy to come get us and that was exactly what happened.

"We’ll find him, I promise. Okay?" I spoke to him as I closed the fridge and I watched as he nodded slowly.

"I’m just worried about him, you know? He can be really strong and he’s a pro at putting on different fronts, but I’m worried about what he has been through in the past days, if he’s hurt or not, and so on." He admitted after a fleeting moment and I felt guilt tug at my chest because just like him, I’ve also thought about this.

After realizing that my father actually expected me to kill Kim, the dream I had the morning before we made that trip, of him giving me a knife and asking me to kill him suddenly made a lot of sense. He might have accepted his fate and asked me to kill him in the dream, but that’s something I’ll never do.

I made a promise to myself that I was gonna rescue Kim and I intend to keep that promise.

When I exited the kitchen and made my way to the bedroom where I left Blaze in, he was already fast asleep and my heart squeezed in my chest as I stared at him from the doorway. I carefully stepped into the room and sank into the spot beside him, and then I silently swore for my father as I wrapped some clothes around the bowl of ice I was currently holding.

I couldn’t believe my father had actually believed I’d ever agree to help him and Blaze’s father in killing Blaze, in exchange for me getting to remain alive after everything. The fact that my father even believed I was gonna fall for a ridiculous lie was hilarious to me. At one point, he spoke on the phone with someone for a few minutes then he told me he just got informed that Blaze had instantly agreed to save himself and is ready to let me die. That had been a ridiculous lie to me because the Blaze I know, the one I was in love with, didn’t even like seeing me hurt or in tears to begin with. He hadn’t been with me at that moment but I had been beyond certain that the news had been nothing but a lie.

The Blaze I know would rather die in my place.

Of course, I didn’t tell my father that. I told him what he needed to hear, just so he could let me leave.

However, now that I was back here with Blaze and seeing how weak he is, I was seriously considering asking my father to take my magic and also let me die, just so that nothing would happen to Blaze. I knew he’d never agree to this, which is why I wasn’t gonna let him know. Because if he did, he’d want to give up his life in my place and I didn’t want that. He was currently in pain because of me, if he never met me, his life would be normal and he’d currently be having fun in school.

When I wrapped the ice around his arms, he moaned in pain and then he was blinking his eyes open. Pain was swimming around in his dimmed eyes and my chest clenched painfully while tears sprang to my eyes.

"I’m so sorry this is happening, it’s completely my fault." I whispered and he shook his head, softly shushing me.

"It’s not your fault, okay?"