Carnivals: Claimed By The Deranged Alpha Prince [BL]-Chapter 338: Clearing The Air

Kim’s pov

"I did ask him of your whereabouts but he refused to tell me. He instead warned me to let go of you and something else which I can’t remember right now. However, my point is, I cared, okay? I fucking did so don’t you dare accuse me of not ever caring. I mean, it’s my fault for holding back and pushing you away. I’m big enough to admit my shortcomings." I pursed and willed my heart to stop racing fast.

"But at the end of the day, none of this matters, does it? You have a boyfriend and you used me for a rebound, that’s not changing and I truly detest you for that. You’re the first person I ever let in, which is exactly why it hurt this bad." I whispered before turning around and wiping at my cheeks angrily, feeling angry at myself because of these stupid tears.

I didn’t hear Roy come closer till strong hand settled on my shoulders. I stiffened as he turned me around. I wanted to slap him bad, maybe that would reduce the hurt feeling inside me right now. But when I was fully facing him and his eyes were boring into mine, my breath caught in my throat and my breathing slowed down. His hands on my shoulders moved up till he was cupping my face. His touch was soft, like he was carrying something fragile and important. However, the look in his eyes were the complete opposite.

The look in his eyes was so intense and he slowly raked them over every inch of my face, making my breath constantly stumble around in my chest before I exhaled shaking when he stepped even closer.

Why was I still letting him touch me like this? Why wasn’t I shoving him away? I should kick him and shove him till he falls hard and probably crack his skull. But I didn’t end up doing any of that, I felt too weak to do any of that. I felt too weak to even ask him why he was doing this.

"It was all real, Angelo." He finally spoke, voice soft and filled with so many emotions. My heart hammered away against the inside of my chest and goosebumps gathered across my hands as he stepped closer, till I could feel his body heat against mine. I swallowed emptily, feeling tongue tied and at a loss of words. I could only blink up at him as he continued.

"None of it was a lie. Everything was so fucking real with you. I wanted you desperately." He continued and I felt a sharp pang of pain in my chest at the word ’wanted’. But before I could say a thing or finally pull away like I should have since the moment he cupped my cheeks, he continued without missing a beat.

"I still want you, Angelo."

My eyes widened, my heart doing a bunch of ridiculous flip flops inside of me as my mouth dried up almost immediately.

"Oh." I whispered, feeling hot all of a sudden. Roy let out a ragged breath that hit my lips and made the hotness inside of me to increase by volumes.

"I’ll always want you, Angelo. At all fucking times." He continued and my mouth parted to let out a pathetic whine before I could stop it.

Roy’s right hand was shifting backward and sliding into my hair, and then he was gripping it firmly and tilting my head back even more. I gasped shakily as heat flared hotly within my stomach, my eyes automatically starting to flutter while my hands struggled to grasp onto his shirt.

When his mouth closed over mine, my brain completely shut down for the first few seconds. After that, desire shrugged through every inch of my veins and I whimpered breathlessly as he kissed me deep and hard. I trembled against his chest as his lips made me fall apart right here and right now.

His tongue slid into my mouth and rubbed against mine and I cried out, the sound getting muffled by his lips as he wrapped his lips around my tongue and sucked on it. His grip in my hair tightened and that made me grow more lightheaded, my knees starting to weaken at once. My hold in his shirt trembled and he groaned low in his throat when the kiss ended.

I sucked in deep breaths and tried to gather my thoughts together, wondering what the hell it was that just happened.

Roy began to kiss down my jaw when realization slammed right into me.

He has a boyfriend.

He has a freaking boyfriend!

A gasp of disgust tore past me and I roughly shoved him away, my chest heaving harshly as I pointed a trembling finger at him.

"You fucking dog! Never do that again! You have a freaking boyfriend!"

I angrily wiped my mouth, berating myself for being so stupid to have been swayed by those stupid words of his. He has someone he’ll always be in love with so those empty words didn’t mean shit.

Roy was breathing hard when our eyes locked again, and then he looked away as he spoke.

"I don’t have a boyfriend."

I instantly leveled him with a glare when our eyes met again and he winced as he stepped closer to take my hand in his. I attempted to pull away but he didn’t let me.

"I’m serious, Angelo. I don’t have a boyfriend."

I felt annoyed and irritated at the same time. "What about San? This isn’t funny in any way!" I shot at him and he grimaced again.

"I- this was why I told you it was a long story. It really is. San isn’t my boyfriend. He’s just a friend." He revealed and I gawked at him, unable to believe my ears.

"What??" I demanded.

"You’re dating. You said so yourself. You’re- you..." I was still speaking when he tugged me into a tight hug.

"He only pretended to be one because I asked him to. I know that’s wrong of me and for that, I apologize. Please don’t get mad at me, I missed you so much..."