Knowing Brother-Chapter 63

The drooping eyes. The eyes that gave off a cynical and dangerous impression at the same time dug into my head. It felt like they were stabbing me to the core. The bridge of my nose above the mask was high. I always trembled because of the energy that pressed down on me more when we were together in a small space. Today, I came with a strong determination, but I still trembled. Ha Young-seo took a deep breath and said what she had been holding back.

“I should have definitely sorted things out so that my parents wouldn’t have to worry. I’ve decided to sort out all the family I was involved with. We won’t be interacting with each other anymore.”

“Yeah.”

“I asked to meet you because I wanted to talk about this in person. You know, I didn’t do anything wrong either. For the past two years, I waited for you to embrace me when I was having a hard time. I regretted it because I only wanted to receive it. But when I thought about it, you were the same.”

“.......”

“It’s true that both of us went through the darkest and most uncertain times in our lives. But when I think about it, you didn’t take care of me either. I didn’t do anything right, and you didn’t do anything right either. You didn’t even try to catch me once. So we’ll never meet again, so let’s just turn around and not feel sorry or regretful, and just be refreshing and light!”

So Ha Young-seo wanted to let Won Dae-young know of her mistakes and let go of all the grudges. Half of it was her pride that she could end things with a clean slate, and half was her desire to finally find out Won Dae-young’s true feelings.

Won Dae-young accepted her words like that. After silently giving the other person time to get to the point, Won Dae-young opened his mouth that he had kept shut the whole time.

“The end?”

“.......”

“Get down.”

Ha Young-seo’s face darkened even more. Ha, Ha Young-seo, who had been mocking him, poured out her criticism in a dry voice.

“Oh, right. You’ve always been like that. As if you put your most important heart somewhere else. You’re not an emotionless psychopath or mentally ill, but you’ve always been anxious and strong. But now I know for sure.”

“.......”

“Your most passionate heart was never with me, never with me, and never will be!”

It felt quite new to hear about my chronic psychological problems from someone else. They weren’t wrong. I hadn’t really thought about it out loud, so I didn’t realize it, but yeah. Won Dae-young’s passionate heart wasn’t here. Where on earth was it? Did he give it to someone else? Or maybe he wasn’t born with something like passionate love in the first place?

Won Dae-young leaned back on the seat and tilted his neck from side to side. It was a silent expression of boredom. Ha Young-seo let out a final sarcastic remark.

“You’ve never mentioned the letter I sent through Seol-woo before.”

“......?”

“Let’s not even answer, let’s pretend it never happened! The lyrics I wrote there were my true feelings at that time, and they were the feelings I wanted to hold onto. I also read and ignored the long KakaoTalk message I sent with it. I should have thrown it all away then, but I felt like... an idiot.”

Won Dae-young quickly fixed his expression.

A letter, a long KakaoTalk message.

It was something I had never seen or heard of. However, Ha Young-seo was saying that it definitely existed. She said she had conveyed it through Choi Seol-woo.

If she wasn’t writing a novel, the reason Won Dae-young didn’t know about the existence of the letter at all... .

There was only one possibility... ... .

A storm of confusion swept over him. What kind of expression did Choi Seol-woo have when she threw away the letter with the song lyrics? Why did she secretly turn on Won Dae-young’s phone and press the exit button in the chatroom?

Why? Why did Choi Seol-woo?

Won Dae-young should have asked Ha Young-seo this. ‘What do you mean, a letter? ‘I’ve never received such a long text message?’

A normal person would have asked that, and the relationship between the two, which had been strained during the long rehabilitation period, would be restored. Choi Seol-woo would have paid the price for what he had done.

Now, Won Dae-young had to come up with an answer. The answer that Won Dae-young gave, blinking slowly, was a shameless lie.

“...Yeah, that letter. I remember. Because I threw it away.”

The passenger seat was eerily quiet. Ha Young-seo was blaming Won Dae-young without even letting out a breath.

Won Dae-young, who had been staring at him intensely for a few seconds, quickly prepared to end the conversation. He had to put aside the confusion of ‘Why Choi Seol-woo?’ for a moment. His chest was pounding hard due to the shock, but he pretended not to notice.

Now was not the time to look away from that thought. He quickly came to his senses and spoke.

“Do you really need to hate me that much? You said you’d tell me everything because it was the end, but there’s something you’re not talking about.”

“What.”

“When we dated for the second time, you used me as a smokescreen.”

“......That is...”

When Ha Young-seo started to gain popularity after debuting with ‘Assembly,’ Kang Jong-hyuk sent her a message on her SNS account, joking that he would reveal the truth about her past public relationship with Won Dae-young and the school violence controversy at the same time, and that he would ruin her image.

At the time, Ha Young-seo had just started dating a fellow celebrity, but she couldn’t overcome her fear, so she ended that relationship and leaned on Won Dae-young. Ha Young-seo confessed the truth and asked if he could be a smokescreen for her by saying that they were still dating. Won Dae-young, who was attending Seoul National University, was concentrating on achieving Olympic records in domestic and international competitions. He was busier than when he was a high school athlete, but he didn’t refuse her request.

He thought that if he refused Ha Young-seo’s request and she got into trouble, Choi Seol-woo, who had a crush on her, would also be disappointed in Dae-young and leave him. He accepted the request and fulfilled his responsibility, thinking that it would be better to do something than that. He contacted him and warned him not to touch ‘us’. He quietly backed down when he realized that the two were still close. After a while, that relationship was quickly ended due to Won Dae-young’s indifference.

Won Dae-young first suggested the next relationship about a year and a half later. He thought that Ha Young-seo was gradually losing interest in her high school classmates, so he decided that it would be beneficial to keep her around a little longer. The reason was Choi Seol-woo’s statute of limitations for theft and defamation. It would be better for Kang Jong-hyuk not to doubt the solidarity between them and his family during the seven years when the statute of limitations for theft expired.

That relationship also fizzled out due to her agency transfer and the group’s disbandment, and Won Dae-young’s injury broke out right away and the statute of limitations expired.

He didn’t tell Choi Seol-woo about this and that. If he kept explaining things, he would probably criticize her for using people, and it was annoying that the situation would become complicated. Even though he knew that Choi Seol-woo had a crush on Ha Young-seo, he couldn’t feel comfortable dating and breaking up. However, what was important to Won Dae-young was that they would all be safe.

Anyway, now that a lot of time has passed, he can’t bother Won Dae-young, Choi Seol-woo, or Ha Young-seo, whose dating rumors had already spread and died down. It was finally sorted out after a long time.

During that time, Won Dae-young didn’t get to experience the thrill of sex or the taste of sex. If there was one thing he gained, it was the certainty that he was a straight man with no problems. He had to focus on rehabilitation anyway, and he didn’t have time to be bored because of Choi Seol-woo. When I desperately wanted to have sex, I held out, hoping for a successful comeback. I came to this moment with the thought of having hot sex with someone I really liked, until the bed was soaked and I lost all sense of it.

Ha Yeong-seo muttered as if she was fed up.

“...Yeah. I was young and immature back then. It was only later that I realized that there was no one like you, so I tried hard... Well, I don’t regret it.”

“.......”

“I... That’s the nature of my job. I can’t easily trust and meet the opposite sex, because I don’t know what could go wrong. ... That’s why I thought you were considerate of me. That’s why I thought you weren’t sleeping with me. I thought you were careful because you were thinking of me... But I didn’t think it was because you didn’t have feelings.”

Won Dae-young must have had a minimum of conscience to not touch her. After all, it was a relationship with a purpose. It was natural that Ha Yeong-seo didn’t feel passionate about Won Dae-young.

Won Dae-young answered coldly, unnecessarily.

“I don’t really differentiate between kissing and sex. That’s why kissing was burdensome. I could have slept with you, but to be honest, I didn’t want to get too involved. But if we slept together a few times and drifted apart, our friendship would be in shambles. I didn’t want to be tied down to you, it’s simple.”

Ha Young-seo is the kind of person any man would turn down. If he had tried a few times and made some sticky remarks, he could have gone straight to bed, but he cut her off ruthlessly because he hated dating rumors more than his accumulated desires. He didn’t want to get involved in that issue again now that their relationship had already been declared over.

“That’s why I drew the line. I should have known that when I chewed out your letter.”

Ha Young-seo pulled her hood up and got out of the car. The force of the door slamming shut seemed to signal the end.

The black car pulled out of the underground parking lot. In the dark underground, Won Dae-young spent a long time reminiscing about the shock he had just experienced. The problem that was pushed to the back of her mind while responding calmly.

Why did Choi Seol-woo tear up the letter?

There are only two answers.

He was madly in love with Ha Yeong-seo until then,

or.

He was madly in love with another man.

When I reached the second possibility, I burst out laughing. Maybe it was because I was so shocked, but my confusion grew and my pulse raced. It was enough to make my reputation as a sports heart pale in comparison.

That’s why Choi Seol-woo risked a criminal record and committed the crazy act of stealing Kang Jong-hyeok’s friend’s cell phone and spreading it everywhere, tearing up the letter, and staying by his side throughout his rehabilitation period. I started thinking back on the things I’d said to him up until now.

Do you really want to get your asshole penetrated?

Choi Seol-woo is gay?

Now. Are you into it?

Are you meeting that bastard Yoon Ji-hwan instead of me?

I feel bad when I think about you getting crushed on by a man.

The image of Choi Seol-woo tearing up the letter is easily seen before his eyes. He hides the shredded letter deep in his bag. Then, while Won Dae-young was washing, he reached for his phone and deleted a long KakaoTalk message. ƒrēewebnoѵёl.cσm

“Ha... Choi Seol-woo... You threw that away...?”

No matter how much I thought ➤ NоvеⅠight ➤ (Read more on our source) about it, it was so crazy that I couldn’t stop laughing. Won Dae-young buried his head in the handlebars in shock.

In his thoughts, Choi Seol-woo still had a crooked expression. He listened to the sound of the shower water and put the hand he had used to tear up the letter into his mouth.

D. The wet fingers soon go into the belt. It goes past the loose waist, to the white navel, and further down. Haa... Daeyoung hyung... . The black eyes that muttered are slightly hazy with excitement.

— I’ll kill you. If you go back, I’ll kill you.

The wet voice of the guy that reached my ear on a night with light rain suddenly pierced through my memory. My stomach stung at the reckless words, “I’ll kill you.”

Won Daeyoung raised his head. Won Daeyoung’s ears, which were tightly gripping his hair, were red.

“You crazy bastard.”

He wasn’t sure whether he was talking about the reckless act of throwing away the letter or to himself, who was angry at that act.

Surprised by his own flushed face, Won Daeyoung swept his face several times. Shit, everything is shaking. This can’t go on. Confusion flashed in his eyes.