Carnivals: Claimed By The Deranged Alpha Prince [BL]-Chapter 283: Hanging On

Jules’ pov

Everyone loved me in my clan, and it wasn’t just because I was the rightful heir, but because I ruled rationally and with fairness the people didn’t even get to experience in the hands of my father like I used to imagine.

Shortly after I returned to this clan with Kim and Roy, the first thing I did was to get my uncle off the throne that was rightfully mine. I tried doing that the easy way but he refused, laughed in my face, still accused me of murder right before he asked me to get lost.

After that, I was forced to result to other means, which in other words meant violence. By the time I was done with them, all the wet picks and wishes on the royal council had all surrendered and pleaded their loyalty to me.

I hadn’t even planned on killing my uncle mainly because I had already been tired of deaths. But my uncle was foolish enough to attempt attacking me from behind when I had my back turned to him. It’s safe to say that the single wrong move led to his death. It had happened right in the throne room, and that automatically made the council members to not dare treat me like a child or try fooling me.

After that day, the days that followed, I officially got crowned the king of the clan, and with the help of my magic, I’ve managed to bring changes to the clan that the last five kings hadn’t even been able to.

In all honesty, I wouldn’t have been able to achieve all of this if it wasn’t for the two friends I have supporting me every step of the way and giving me the emotional strength I needed.

Just like my mother had always said, all the people who once looked down on me; the kids who once laughed at me for being different, all of them ended up bowing to me with sincere regret and appreciation.

Somehow, I went from the bottom of the line to the very top. From the prince no one gave a fuck about, to the savior of the pack.

Of course, I didn’t let any of that get to my head. Not that I could If I wanted to, when I was literally always sad whenever I was alone.

Whenever my eyes land on the large portrait of my entire family, minus my father, sitting in the side of the royal room, I always feel a tight squeeze in my chest. I’d have given anything to have them with me right now, to have them around me so they could see how far I’ve come, and so that we could all live together in peace forever.

But sadly they were gone and there was nothing I could do about it no matter how much I wished.

I’ve created a grave for my mother and four siblings here in the palace, in remembrance of them, and I sometimes go there whenever I want to think of nothing but them. That was my favorite place to visit whenever I need to drown myself in thoughts of them.

At the square of the pack, like Kim suggested, I had statues sculpted in honor of their memory, so that whenever the clan members come across those statues, they can always be remembered of the royal family that was no more.

I was currently sitting on the throne, lost to thoughts of none other than my mate’s. I’ve refused to think about if this was how I’d have to life forever.

This morning, the meeting I had with the council members had ended badly on my part, because one of them had suggested I start to look for a bride or a husband, so that I can have a partner because thrones are not meant to be ruled by one person. There was also the fact that I’d also need an heir, so they believed a bride was better in my situation.

The whole meeting had pissed me off. I wasn’t into girls, I didn’t have the necessary organs to get women pregnant, so how the hell do I even want to provide heirs for the throne? I also detested the fact that they suggested I get a mate altogether, because to me I still have a mate and I couldn’t even see myself interested in getting another person as a mate in the future.

My heart, soul and body belongs to Blaze and none other.

I let out a small sigh and massaged my forehead, and then a sigh slipped past my throat just as the throne room doors flew open and in walked in Kim. He was in all his bubbly glory as he strutted in, like he had the sun trapped within him from how he glowed. Kim was back to his normal fun and bubbly self, he had even managed to create an identity for himself here in this clan in no time after we arrived here. I had introduced him to everyone as my brother and they had instantly welcomed him.

Kim and I practice magic a few times a week. He truly had some magic in him like my father had claimed, and it wasn’t like he could get those lessons from a teacher, but I just preferred doing it with him because it helped me get out of my thoughts and also helped the two of us grow closer and strengthen the bond between us.

Kim stopped a few feet away from the throne, pants tightly clinging to his legs and ass as he opened the scroll he was with and began to read off it.

Once he was done, he rolled the scroll up again and put it away, and then he rubbed his hands together.

"Have you been sitting there for the past couple of hours?" He asked and I pursed my lips, which was answer enough because he let out a small sigh as he closed the distance between us.

"I know it’s hard to be away from him, especially since you guys were so into each other." Kim sighed out and I averted my gaze as my heart ached at once.

"Do you think he’s dead?" I asked underneath my breath, staring down at my fingers.

Kim’s hands wrapped around my cheeks and he turned my head around till our gazes were locking.

"In all honesty, I’d say yes." He began and I swallowed emptily. "But I also believe that if he was dead, you’d have felt it in the mate bond. In the mark he gave you. You’d have been able to somehow tell." He explained and I expelled a deep exhale, hand automatically reaching for the mark at the side of my throat. freewēbnoveℓ.com

"If he’s alive, why isn’t he coming back for me?" I mumbled quietly and Kim made a wounded sound in his throat before taking my hand into his and squeezing a little.

"I honestly don’t know. I’m sorry." He responded quickly and I shook my head and cleared my throat, trying to put myself together."

"It’s okay, it’s not your fault. I’m grateful for your presence because sometimes only your bubbly energy is enough to sometimes motivate me." I sincerely revealed and he smiled softly.

"I try." He grinned and then he tugged on my hand, pulling me off the throne.

"You should come take a bath though, so you’d be able to eat."

I protested but he wasn’t having it, blatantly manhandling his king, and he loved to roll his eyes whenever I told him that.

"You should eat, for strength. You think blaze would be happy if you’re starving yourself? At this rate you’ll end up losing all your ass. If that happens, what’s he gonna spank when he comes for you?" He nudged my shoulder as he spoke and I laughed a little, appreciating his attempt to lift my spirit.

"Xander sent you a gift." He revealed as we made our way down the large hallways and into the large bathhouse of the palace solely for the king.

Kim began to run the bath and fling in a bunch of bath bombs and soaps to bring forth a really nice scent.

"Really?" I asked and he hummed.

Xander was currently assisting his elder brother in ruling the lycan pack since his father was no more. We haven’t seen each other since after that night whereby I got to lose Blaze.

"Did he send you one?" I asked and Kim hummed again, and I narrowed my eyes at him which made him roll his eyes.

"It’s not what you’re thinking, he also sent Roy a gift. These are just gifts to show appreciation, especially yours which is the largest. You should open it later." He suggested and I nodded absentmindedly.

"So, what about you and Roy?" I asked as I tied my hair up into a bun.

Kim avoided my gaze this time.

"I don’t know what you’re talking about." He insisted, gaze still averted. I wasn’t stupid, something was definitely going on between them, the way they looked at each other was telling enough. Although I refrained from pushing, knowing Kim would come to me himself about it anyway.

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When I got a text at night from Raina, Blaze’s sister, informing me that they’ve finally found where Blaze is, I almost passed out from shock.